Well I am on a spree of sleepless nights (I wasn’t on my adhd med for a week and then took it late the other night–I’m all fucked up) so I thought I’d write to you about a few things: ADHD, a little on the moods in bipolar, a little Ptsd, destructive behavior, and sex. Sound alright?
Well first, ADHD. I’m in this group–it’s a totally limitless free-for-all for people with ADHD, and that is where I met the writer/blogger Tom Nardone (here’s his site, here’s his blog). He has a hilarious view on ADHD (and it just so happens my ADHD is my only disorder I find quite funny). If you get a chance, go read his stuff, and listen to his podcasts–total entertainment and eye-opening thoughts–he really gets you to look at yourself and think for yourself.
But he got me thinking about how ADHD effects my life past and present. When I was younger it wasn’t so prevalent–except I couldn’t read books/textbooks–had no clue what was going on in English and History). It has to/had to be very stimulating to capture my attention (and what I find stimulating are things on emotional/sexual levels). It wasn’t until my twenties that I began to chase after things I could never catch (comorbid with the PTSD), I was abusing drugs and very sexually active (way too active–even though the PtSD blocked all orgasming). Later in my mid to late twenties I couldn’t focus or sit still. I was (always have been) EXTREMELY impulsive–with words, with reactions, with money, with drug, with people. The PTSD came into effect full force in 2009 and my brain was a scramble. I had Read More