70’s Soundtrack

you’re leaving again

I’m standing in the dusty road

of a seventy’s film, watching your

el camino spray gravel at my chucks

your cigarette flicked out the window,

your wedding ring gone.  again.

not that I miss you.

but i wonder why it was so much easier

losing fathers than a mother

The Guess Who blares out your window

your eyes never look up from the road

because you’re angry

only and always angry

and I just happen to be there, every time

I walk the opposite direction in a cast of

browns and yellows

a 7/11 the only thing in sight

CCR plays as if it were a film

As long as I can see the light….

gone….gone…gone…

I tell myself to put my head up,

to raise myself

again

and I am my own mother

loving the girl I am

the woman I’ve tried to become

dreaming my dead father loves me

up in the sky in his plaid shirt

and dirty bell bottoms.

I walk til the end of the scene,

telling myself some people

aren’t worth keeping